Melissa deHart

Why is this girl so thin?

I know a lot of you are wondering why is she so thin? While I wish I could give just one answer, unfortunately there are just so many components. I don't want to dwell on this, but I will give your curious minds some information.

Eleven years ago, what started as an innocent diet, turned into a downward spiral of self-denial and self-hatred. A lot of people think that I just lost my appetite. This is so untrue, the more you starve your body the hungrier you get! I constantly think about food, dream about food, obsess about food. For some reason, just as some people choose drugs or alcohol, I choose food, or denial of it, to ease the pain I feel emotionally. Of course society and our diet obsessed culture didn't help.

I'm not going to say much more, except that unlike the stereotype of, "She doesn't eat because she thinks she's fat", I don't eat because I don't think I deserve the nourishment. I feel guilty when I put food in my body, I think I'm doing something wrong.

Here at Westwind, the focus is trying to build self-acceptance and self-esteem so that one, or in my case me, can feel as though I deserve to eat and feel good enough about myself to nourish my body. Hopefully by getting in touch with my dreams, interests and desires in life I will open the pathways to the desire for life and health and happiness.

Love Melissa

PS. I am totally open to answering any of your questions.

The Story of Melissa deHart